im going to be honest, I don’t know when things got this out of control. i can’t function. im siting at asda (which is a five minute walk from my house) waiting for my mum to come and pick me up because i cant walk home, my legs won’t take me, my heart is straining under the weight of my chest. i cannot continue to be this way and expect to live, live a life worth anything at all. I cannot keep being admitted to hospital with heart arrhythmias due to low potassium, i cannot kid myself into thinking that a bmi of 14.3 is okay. people don’t live this way, they die, and im being bold and saying I do not want to die. I’m so very lost and i am aware of it, and that’s the worst part, because i can’t pull myself out from here, i can’t, and im sorry.